My Son

Where do i start off with this one? ok, i know; well lets just say it was very unexpected when i found out i was pregnant with him. In retrospect i should have know i could get pregnant, i thought i was being safe but really i wasn't using the safest technique. Just a few days after i conceived i knew in my head that i was pregnant, i didn't feel any different yet but in my head and in my heart i just knew. The possibility of being pregnant was all i could think about; after all i was 19yrs old, i didn't have a job, and i was living with my mom. So one night, i layed in bed and prayed (as well as cried) to god. I said please god if i'm pregnant help me to get a job and then help me to get an apartment of my own. The next day i woke up it was close to 11 in the morning and had been down stairs sitting with my mom for about five minutes when the phone rang, it was 1st stop gas station (up the road from where i lived) they asked for me and upon talking they asked me if i was still interested in a job!!!! i was shocked, dumb-founded and the first thing that came to mind is that the man above was more then trying to tell me something. So i accepted, went in for an interview and was at work the next day at 6am. I preceeded to keep my thoughts of pregnancy to myself for almost two more months. It was hard to do but work kept me busy so i didn't think of it to much.
Then one day in february, my sister ashley and i started fighting and she pushed me at that point i flew off the handle and screamed as loud as i could "Go ahead hit a pregnant girl" by this time i had already taken a test it came out positive so i knew it was official...Hearing this news Ashley was shocked, i ran out of the house crying, i saw moms' face as i left. I could tell she was shocked and in total disbelief....but she was supportive of me.
I ended up having Jayden 2 1/2 months early it was the scariest time in my life, he was born June 2nd, 2005 8:55pm @ 3lbs2oz and 16inches long. I went into preterm labor after my placenta tore and i started leaking fluids, they kept me at Good Sam for two days before they couldn't hold out any longer and i had to have him, they preped me for a c-section (which i did not want) but before they could take me jayden was ready to be born..i pushed for twenty five minutes and he was born. He was a strong baby and i was so proud of him.
Now today five years later, i still couldn't be more proud of my son and so lucky to be his mother. He has taught me so much, and honestly has saved my life. For most of his life it's just been me and him against the world. He can be such a handful, sometimes driving me totally insane, but those are the things i miss when he's not with me. He is the most loving boy i know, he can't go without telling me he loves me at least 20 times a day and he makes it a point to ask how i am and (now that i'm pregnant) how the baby is doing. He is such a smart boy, he is starting school this August and that day will definitely be a bittersweet one. I know as he gets older it's going to be rough. We are going to go through back talking and staying out late (more then i will ever be comfortable with) but Jayden and i have a special bond that is extremely strong. He is my best friend, i can honestly talk to him about anything, tell him anything. He seems at times a little more mature then he should be, i know as the years pass by he will continue the best son in the world!!!!